The world of JULIANA

Never in my wildest imagination, did I ever dream I’d be ‘forced’ to stay at home for almost a whole 2 months!!!! *sigh. Undeniably, all that luxury of time is certainly heavenly. However, after awhile, one almost forgets how one’s NORMAL life was prior to an incident as this!Due to queries and requests from friends as to why I haven’t updated my blog in awhile, I figured it’s time to get back to my beloved blog!

Every month, the young adults of our church get together for a prayer in church. Recently, we tried to revamp this concept and hence, it was my turn to give a li’l sermon (to my non-Christian friends, that would mean choosing a topic and looking into the Bible for further references on the chosen topic , lasting for ’bout 15-20mins).  However, due to my immobilizing-injury, I have been house-bound and hence, would have been unable to attend the prayer gathering at church.  Hence, we arranged for a eleventh-hour POT-LUCK get-together in the comforts of my very own home! This is certainly the first of its kind and was simply excellent! Members of the young adult group brought various types of delicacies and we had such wonderful fellowship together.

As for me, preparing to give a sermon for the very first time in my entire life was nerve-wrecking! Right up to 4-5hours prior to the event, I had cold feet and told Robz that I’m not ready for this and would LOVE to back out! I even told him that I was prepared to inform our church priest to go ahead and give the sermon instead! Haha….It was frigtening to think of how I was going to deliver a li’l sermon in front of the young adults and our church priest! What if I accidentally mis-quote the Bible? What if I speak too fast? What if I’m a boring speaker? What if people fall asleep? So many "what if’s" ran in my mind. In the end, thanks to a substantial amount of moral support from loved ones, I finally did give the sermon! I had anticipated to finish the topic in 10mins and ended up speaking for close to 1/2hr, much to my own disbelief! The fellowship that we shared was beautiful and even though the group was tiny, I believe that everyone present had an amazing time there.

Apart from that, it’s been so nice to have friends and loved ones over. It certainly makes the day/week/weekend so much more colourful ! Yesterday, a friend of mine came over with five engaging novels for me to read over the subsequent weeks! I can’t wait to read ‘em all ! I have an Aunty who never fails to bring fresh home-made food on Sundays. She’s such a darling.

Amidst resting on the couch, glued to the tv, being the couch-potato I’ve transformed into, I certainly miss the adrenaline-rush that I get from driving!! After awhile, asking for favours from loved ones to buy stuff gets boring and you just can’t wait to be on your feet! I miss driving at hair-raising speed. Haha…let me rephrase-that for fear that cousins/loved ones reading this might complain to Robz/parents! *laughs. Actually, drivin’ around is such a therapeutic experience. And that’s definitely somethin’ I’ve been unable to do for the last 2mths!

There have been several major setbacks and disappointments. As destiny would have it, two of my very very close friends got married over these 2 months of my ‘injury time’!! *sigh. These were buddies whom I was very close with back in Edinburgh. Friends whose weddings I had sworn to myself I’d be at! Friends who had expected and anticipated my presence to partake in the joy of their celebration. I feel so rotten and miserable for having let them both down. I wish I could’ve gone, but considering that I’m unable to even walk downstairs, there was absolutely no way I could’ve made it for their weddings. *sigh again.

My colleagues frm work have been calling up from work. I miss all the excitement of being at work. Waking up in the morning with a purpose.Arggggghhhhhhh…….I do know that my long MC period will soon come to an end and I can look forward to being a completely ordinary normal KL folk again!

As bizarre as this sounds, I miss being stuck in the hustle and bustle of city life. I miss the lousy traffic jams. I miss having to wait at traffic lights. I miss everything that we often take for granted. As a wise one once said, "you never really treasure what you have until you’ve lost it".  A word that hasn’t been part of my vocab or dictionary over the last 2 months! In my case, that’ll definitely have to be my INDEPENDENCE.